Q: “What does God expect of me?”
Steve Auterburn, CEO of World Vision was asked this question when he was admitingly hemming and hawing about taking on the task of running World Vision-the global ministry dedicated to providing education, housing, medical and spiritual provision to orphaned children in the poorest nations on the planet.
The question resonated with me immediately. Everything is a tall order. If I had heard that statement when I first became a Christian I wonder how I would have reacted?
I struggled with the term “born again” and “saved” though quite clearly God had intervened in an area of my life I had no control over and struggled with since I knew what the emotion anger was. God supernaturally gave me the ability to forgive and His healing peace; something that I could never have conjured up on my own. I knew my life would never be the same and as I came to terms with what that meant; we visited relatives that I have rarely seen since, who quite plainly said to me, “what’s wrong with being saved? We’re saved?”
As I grew in the Lord, through my church, and bible study group, my sister’s in Christ and fellowship with God, I try to share with those closest to me what I learn. I find that half the time I am greeted with a testy impatience and mild annoyance, though Jesus clearly commanded us to spread the Word.
I see that many people go to church out of obligation, get that boxed checked and hurry on to what the rest of the day brings. I wonder? What if God only thought about me on Sundays between 10 a.m and 11 a.m.?
I hear people dickering over going to church on a Saturday for a wedding or christening and wondering if that is sufficient- if it counts toward Sunday?
I struggle with a wariness to speak to others about the Lord, fearing their reaction, but all the while knowing that if I don’t act in obedience to the Lord, he has to wait for the next person to be his hands and feet.
I hear the phrase “use me Lord” often enough, and I determined a long while back, though I didn’t know how to articulate it- that I wanted to be a person that God could trust. I wanted to have the resolve to learn about God. To do His will. To be His hands and feet.
While I understand that God called me, not the other way around, and He already knows if I am capable of serving Him and how I am to go about doing so….I also know that I may not be able to do “everything” without Him.
Thank you for saving me. Thank you for calling me. I know you are still speaking to us, and I want to hear you clearly. Pour into me a measure -okay….fill me to the brim with the willingness to do everything you need me to do. Let me hear your call and rise to the task. Build my faith so I can meet your expectations.
In the precious name of your Son Jesus.